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My mind is all over the place right now, and I call it the old guy Corvette syndrome. I am not unhappy with where I am at this moment of my life, but I am not happy either. I wait, and wait, and wait. I wait until the kids are older, I wait until I make a certain amount of money, I wait until the credit card is paid off, I wait for the tax return, I wait until Karen goes back to work, I wait, and wait, and wait.
It isn’t that I live in squalor. It isn’t that I am materialistic. It isn’t that I am unhappy with what I’ve got. I think it is just that at some point people get tired of waiting; I am tired of waiting. I want to do. Thus the dude in the Corvette. I think he waited, and waited and finally he said “F%*k it, I am tired of waiting, I am going to do what I want.” So he gets a Corvette and starts chasing young girls.
I feel stagnant; in that respect I am the Corvette dude. I am tired of waiting for all of these things. I don’t feel like I am living, I feel like I am being, and that just sucks. Life will end. I do not want to spend it being. So for whatever reason, I am where I am. I need to figure it out. I need to figure out what will make me happy and I need to make time to do it.